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Schizophrenia is a long-term mental health condition that causes a range of different psychological symptoms, including:
hallucinations – hearing or seeing things that do not exist
delusions – unusual beliefs not based on reality that often contradict the evidence
muddled thoughts based on hallucinations or delusions
changes in behaviour
Doctors often describe schizophrenia as a psychotic illness. This means sometimes a person may not be able to distinguish their own thoughts and ideas from reality.
Read more about the symptoms of schizophrenia.
Why does schizophrenia happen?
The exact cause of schizophrenia is unknown. However, most experts believe the condition is caused by a combination of genetic and environmental factors.
It is thought certain things make you more vulnerable to developing schizophrenia, and certain situations can trigger the condition.

Confused thoughts (thought disorder)
People experiencing psychosis often have trouble keeping track of their thoughts and conversations. Some people find it hard to concentrate and will drift from one idea to another. They may have trouble reading newspaper articles or watching a TV programme.
People sometimes describe their thoughts as "misty" or "hazy" when this is happening to them. Thoughts and speech may become jumbled or confused, making conversation difficult and hard for other people to understand.
Changes in behaviour and thoughts
A person's behaviour may become more disorganised and unpredictable, and their appearance or dress may seem unusual to others. People with schizophrenia may behave inappropriately or become extremely agitated and shout or swear for no reason.
Some people describe their thoughts as being controlled by someone else, that their thoughts are not their own, or that thoughts have been planted in their mind by someone else.
Another recognised feeling is that thoughts are disappearing, as though someone is removing them from their mind. Some people feel their body is being taken over and someone else is directing their movements and actions.
Negative symptoms of schizophrenia
The negative symptoms of schizophrenia can often appear several years before somebody experiences their first acute schizophrenic episode. These initial negative symptoms are often referred to as the prodromal period of schizophrenia.
Symptoms during the prodromal period usually appear gradually and slowly get worse. They include becoming more socially withdrawn and experiencing an increasing lack of care about your appearance and personal hygiene.
It can be difficult to tell whether the symptoms are part of the development of schizophrenia or caused by something else. Negative symptoms experienced by people living with schizophrenia include:
losing interest and motivation in life and activities, including relationships and sex
lack of concentration, not wanting to leave the house, and changes in sleeping patterns
being less likely to initiate conversations and feeling uncomfortable with people, or feeling there is nothing to say


You might be wondering why I'm making a topic on this, well it wasn't until today that I thought to research about it as I've been having thoughts that I can't really explain and place into making sense. It's really not easy for people to understand, and by knowing that these are thoughts that most people don't have or think into detail until there's no room left in the mind to think of anything else, like your head is going to explode with questions and you lose yourself in these questions and it can really stress you out and you wish you didn't have all these thoughts. The worst part is you can't explain it very well at all, or at least not for me laugh.gif

Now I don't have full on schizophrenia, I might not even have schizoaffective, but as I said I don't think most people have times where they are very distracted by life questions, social situations and decisions about what's right and not etc., sure everyone thinks about why we are here etc. but not to such a huge extent that it overwhelms you in such a way. I think this is also something to do with my history as a poster in here and some things in the above quote I believe I relate to, like changes in behaviour and having thoughts about separating myself completely from everyone because I sometimes think that that will just make things so much easier and it's only myself that has to deal with things. But then people are going to tell me that it's not necessary or whatever to make such an extreme decision. Fair enough that's understandable. But why it's difficult to agree sometimes I'll explain further down.

An example of this which I haven't explained properly until now is when I left sites like plug and rabbit for months, it was like whenever I left after a good night I just felt a mild depression about my life and I think it's because I enjoy myself too much or something, idk laugh.gif and it's mainly because of my social struggles my mind just tells me how unlikely it is for me to be able to cope with a normal life. But when I am not in these "moods" or whatever it's called, I then think well actually, I can do this and that, yeah I can cope, why did I think that before? Obviously me being back on plug etc. regularly for months now shows that this doesn't really affect me much any more, I've been pretty good in spirits for months now, I've had minor turns only occasionally but it hasn't been as bad or regularly as before.

I think what has triggered these overwhelming questioning thoughts about life and when I'm doing the right thing or not etc. now is maybe after just coming back from my holiday for 2 weeks which was great, I was having emotional highs nearly every day doing something fun and new each day. Then coming back and having the normal less eventful life and it's like I have some kind of "need" to have adventures or emotional highs so that I don't feel down when it returns to normal again.

I used to think I was a LOT different to everyone else and that didn't help matters at all. I've touched on before about what I call "emotional unstableness" which involves me being, well sensitive to emotions really. It might make me appear to be abnormally obsessed with like a song or an event or something. But there's also the other side of it, I might feel very down about something that others would think is not worth feeling down about :l if ever I upset someone I can get over apologetic (if that's even a thing) and my mind struggles to process what is right and if they are just responding to make me feel better, how am I supposed to know if they are being completely truthful? The fact I can't change the past or make a decision differently stresses me out a lot. I also try to tell myself that the past is in the past and there's no use worrying over things you can't do anything about. But then you are concerned about others and you can take it personally like nothing else matters, when you are trying to make someone else happy for whatever reason and it's not so straight forward for whatever reason, and that person is also an empath thinking the same thing and having the same motives, trying to get both parties happy can be very difficult in some situations. I sometimes feel like I wish I wasn't so empathic because of things like this, and then the fact that I'm wishing such a thing makes me wonder if I should be thinking such a thing even? Like am I not as nice a person as I thought? Remember the Nice vs too nice thread, I struggle to decide if it's a good thing or not, but it's better than not caring about anyone at all, I've said before what I want more than anything is to have a balance but with so many things I'm either on one end or the other drama.gif joining this site and realising that I'm not as different as I thought has made such a positive impact and being able to discuss some of these subjects with others has been amazing. Especially getting to know people like Mattias who I never thought I'd have so much in common with, it's quite unbelievable honestly laugh.gif he's been very very helpful with advice and discussing problems etc. so thank you so much.

Even getting this all out is helping me get back to normal. I'm not saying I have proper schizophrenia as it doesn't happen to me as often as it used to. But I'm also quite confident I have SOME kind of thing that makes me different to others. Another thing is maybe the rate coming up and I'm not sure how I'm going to cope with reading all the comments, the good and bad ones might have a slight effect on me but please don't translate this into me telling you guys to not give comments! In fact I was going to say something in the rate about how important I feel they are. The scores other than 6, 7 and 8 would be most valuable. If I had a -1 or 0 I would want to know why. If it's because of such and such then tell me in the thread or in a pm if you feel uncomfortable sharing it like. And the same goes for high scores too really. Tyvm for a 10 but what made you set aside one of your precious seven 10s for me? Lol.

It's good in a way that I am aware there are things going on and that I do have issues, some are easier to deal with than I might think. There's overthinking for one, and to an extent it's what a fair amount of people find themselves doing. Well I'm getting better at this for a start. To have an open mind, be open to all possibilities, never dismissing one or assuming another. Not thinking that you are right even if all signs point to that possibility. In short, I've just had enough of worrying or regretting things that really shouldn't be worth my worrying about. I'm just losing the will to care about small things like that any more. I'm also trying to give Making decisions thread here too. Which option will provide the most positives? Which will provide the least negatives? Accept that both have negatives. Which option would have the easier to solve negatives? This is what it's like in my head and written into a post laugh.gif I guess this thread also hints as to why I've gone all essay style for a few months now. There's just stuff you can't keep in there without doing something. I'm just bored of feeling weird or worrying about being different, making choices, worrying about what people think, no one has died ffs, I shouldn't be going this much into detail about small things but I do anyway and idk why laugh.gif

This post is long and it's a serious topic yes but please don't be over concerned or whatever, that's not the intention of this thread. I don't really want to get overwhelmed by e replies either. It's just me trying to clear things up and that I might say or do things that people won't understand and I'll be unable to explain or even understand myself.

I also could easily go back to normal and not have these overprocessive thoughts and then consider making this thread was unnecessary, but then that would come under the umbrella I mentioned above with regretting what's in the past and it being a small thing heehee.gif

Again please don't feel the need to go all soppy into replies etc. It's not really depression and it's not something I can explain very well or anyone to be able to help. Having people worrying about me is the worst I want to have as an outcome in this thread, I also want to make it very clear that I value your compassion so so much at the same time, this is another thing, can I tell people to not worry about me, not get them affected by me when I'm already affected and make it worse for both parties? That's so difficult for me to do sleep.gif this thread It's basically just trying to get people to understand and be aware that there's things I might say or do that you won't understand. Don't think of me TOO differently because of this either. I'm worried that people might be afraid to to say or do something around me in light of this - I'll pick up on that and then I'll regret making this thread and stuff. That's kinda another thing really. I can't help it if others overthink what I say or go down the wrong road of assumption and that's just one of those things. You all know how much I value the site and its members, so should I have periods of being odd (in a negative way) or if I react in an unusually negative manner remember this thread ok heart.gif

For the time being I've disabled my PM box, I feel like there's nothing that can't be said here in the thread in public. I'll re-open it sometime tomorrow later on if/when I feel I've got the message across how I intended biggrin.gif

Should also mention it's 3AM in the morning over here and that's where my deep thoughts peak should I be awake at such a time. No doubt I'll wake up and reread this and want to change things to make it clearer or to correct something which I then think would lead someone down the wrong conclusional road when read in a certain way. Oh and remember how awful I am at wording things, well I can't emphasise that enough here, so, if you're unsure about something I said please ask me to clarify or whatever haha :')

Life lol laugh.gif

(Ps this is almost 2000 words discounting the quote, literal essay goals rotf.gif )


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Sorry I've just skimmed this just now but I'll give it a proper read and more in depth reply when I get home from work

Tbh Schizophrenia isn't the only answer to having overwhelming thoughts, anxiety can have the same effect, overthinking the smallest of things, worrying about everything, being in a constant state of nervousness. Anxiety can stop you doing the smallest of things and there's much more to it than just the 'social' kind. What makes schizophrenia different for me is it's the 'split personality' disorder part, I guess it feels like you've got invasive thoughts that don't belong to you in your mind. Talking to someone about what goes on in your head is always a good place to start dealing with things, whether they're a professional or not though smile.gif
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post Jul 24 2016, 05:36 AM
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If you are having these thoughts, even though they are drowned in optimism... Which I applaud you for, you need to discuss these thoughts with a therapist, or at the very least with someone that can be there physically.

My little brother has schizophrenia pretty badly. He started out with some mild symptoms and it exploded out of no where. He wouldn't eat, talk to any of us. Idk, it was just bad. I'm sorry if my sarcasm has ever hurt you, at any point. Know I am an ally and always here if you need to talk. I know you are unsure, but, I'm here for you. I wish someone was there for my brother when he discussed his syptoms.
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post Jul 24 2016, 09:11 AM
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I'm no expert but I'm doing psych as a degree and have studied schizophrenia and nothing you have mentioned is really anything I'm aware of as a schizophrenic symptoms. There are a lot of varying symptoms and to be diagnosed you have to have two or more of these for 30 days plus to be diagnosed and even then it's not necessarily anything that's even near to schizophrenia because its symptoms can overlap a fair bit with things like depression and anxiet. One thing is for sure, thinking about life a lot and often not wanting to engage socially isn't a tell tale sign of psychosis tongue.gif

I'm not saying there isn't something there but to me it just seems like maybe social anxiety or even depression to some degree. I'm not saying "just" as if it doesn't matter but that would be better than being schizophrenic, sorry I'm not putting this very well laugh.gif Either way whatever you think you have, you should at least speak to a doctor who if they think it's needed can refer you to a specialist of some sort who really knows what they're talking about. On here we can assure you we don't think it's schizophrenia but we can't really see what IS wrong with you because we don't know you in real life, somebody who's well versed in dealing with these sorts of disorders and problems is much more likely to be able to pin down what you have, rather than an internet friend or someone who's done a bit of psychology! That being said PM me if you want to talk about it with someone who knows a little before you face a proper professional, I know that can be daunting but if you keep having these thoughts that are debilitating the way you go about things then it will be needed and they, plus us, are here to help.
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Ignoring all labels of medical conditions here I really would echo the above sentiments that it would be useful to go to a doctor, or someone professional who can be physically there just to discuss the feelings you have written above. You wrote that you didn't wish for people to be worried about you, and if you're anything like me it took me a long time to reach out for help because I was scared of worrying the people close to me, but honestly reaching out for help earlier this year was the most encouraging thing I did, so I really do urge you to try! I'm not too sure what mental health facilities are there in your area (I'm sure google can help out of course) but it is completely possible just to book an appointment with your GP and they can help you get to the appropriate people!
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echo evryone's comments, mental health is something that has never really had the support it needs, and a large portion of the population has experience of it, mine has been severe depression and anxiety stress coming out in all sorts of behavioural and anxiety-inflicted ways, pretty much periodically throughout my life. It affects your career and family, as people are not inclined to put you into situations which might cause a downturn.

Getting help sooner is the best thing you can do, rather than soldiering on until you can't any more and get overloaded with unhappiness. Cos if you get that bad then it takes longer to get over it.

good luck!
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post Jul 24 2016, 10:34 AM
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Oh my god...

Ok here goes lol
QUOTE(ℒ����⻤ @ Jul 24 2016, 05:25 AM) *
Sorry I've just skimmed this just now but I'll give it a proper read and more in depth reply when I get home from work

Tbh Schizophrenia isn't the only answer to having overwhelming thoughts, anxiety can have the same effect, overthinking the smallest of things, worrying about everything, being in a constant state of nervousness. Anxiety can stop you doing the smallest of things and there's much more to it than just the 'social' kind. What makes schizophrenia different for me is it's the 'split personality' disorder part, I guess it feels like you've got invasive thoughts that don't belong to you in your mind. Talking to someone about what goes on in your head is always a good place to start dealing with things, whether they're a professional or not though smile.gif

Yes I did take that into account. As for going to "see" someone about it I don't really think it's extreme enough to have the need just yet. It's probably just a small phase idk. I've been good at not deep thinking this kind of stuff for a while and reasons I said earlier might have triggered it or smt. Should it persist or get any worse I'll do something about it tho magic.gif

Oh and as for the split personality thing, that actually came up on the nhs site that it's not actually part of schizo tongue.gif
QUOTE(Tyler @ Jul 24 2016, 06:36 AM) *
If you are having these thoughts, even though they are drowned in optimism... Which I applaud you for, you need to discuss these thoughts with a therapist, or at the very least with someone that can be there physically.

My little brother has schizophrenia pretty badly. He started out with some mild symptoms and it exploded out of no where. He wouldn't eat, talk to any of us. Idk, it was just bad. I'm sorry if my sarcasm has ever hurt you, at any point. Know I am an ally and always here if you need to talk. I know you are unsure, but, I'm here for you. I wish someone was there for my brother when he discussed his syptoms.

Oh I'm sorry to hear that. I've not actually shown signs of schizo out of my head as such, if that makes sense, and maybe that's a sign that it's not going to develop or persist and it's only a temporary thing, that come and goes it doesn't affect me that much to stop me from doing normal things. Don't worry about your sarcasm or whatever to your posts though! Sorry if I kinda hinted at anyone's posts or whatever, I did try to keep it general etc. laugh.gif thanks tho wub.gif
QUOTE(Liаm @ Jul 24 2016, 10:11 AM) *
I'm no expert but I'm doing psych as a degree and have studied schizophrenia and nothing you have mentioned is really anything I'm aware of as a schizophrenic symptoms. There are a lot of varying symptoms and to be diagnosed you have to have two or more of these for 30 days plus to be diagnosed and even then it's not necessarily anything that's even near to schizophrenia because its symptoms can overlap a fair bit with things like depression and anxiet. One thing is for sure, thinking about life a lot and often not wanting to engage socially isn't a tell tale sign of psychosis tongue.gif

I'm not saying there isn't something there but to me it just seems like maybe social anxiety or even depression to some degree. I'm not saying "just" as if it doesn't matter but that would be better than being schizophrenic, sorry I'm not putting this very well laugh.gif Either way whatever you think you have, you should at least speak to a doctor who if they think it's needed can refer you to a specialist of some sort who really knows what they're talking about. On here we can assure you we don't think it's schizophrenia but we can't really see what IS wrong with you because we don't know you in real life, somebody who's well versed in dealing with these sorts of disorders and problems is much more likely to be able to pin down what you have, rather than an internet friend or someone who's done a bit of psychology! That being said PM me if you want to talk about it with someone who knows a little before you face a proper professional, I know that can be daunting but if you keep having these thoughts that are debilitating the way you go about things then it will be needed and they, plus us, are here to help.

Yeah as I said it's not something regular or long term so idk. It's not really depression either, it doesn't make me sad directly... it's just overwhelming.
QUOTE(princess_lotti @ Jul 24 2016, 10:37 AM) *
Ignoring all labels of medical conditions here I really would echo the above sentiments that it would be useful to go to a doctor, or someone professional who can be physically there just to discuss the feelings you have written above. You wrote that you didn't wish for people to be worried about you, and if you're anything like me it took me a long time to reach out for help because I was scared of worrying the people close to me, but honestly reaching out for help earlier this year was the most encouraging thing I did, so I really do urge you to try! I'm not too sure what mental health facilities are there in your area (I'm sure google can help out of course) but it is completely possible just to book an appointment with your GP and they can help you get to the appropriate people!

QUOTE(popchartfreak @ Jul 24 2016, 11:22 AM) *
echo evryone's comments, mental health is something that has never really had the support it needs, and a large portion of the population has experience of it, mine has been severe depression and anxiety stress coming out in all sorts of behavioural and anxiety-inflicted ways, pretty much periodically throughout my life. It affects your career and family, as people are not inclined to put you into situations which might cause a downturn.

Getting help sooner is the best thing you can do, rather than soldiering on until you can't any more and get overloaded with unhappiness. Cos if you get that bad then it takes longer to get over it.

good luck!

I also wonder if I really am thinking stuff others aren't... Maybe I am and having such an open mind and going into detail about stuff so easily makes me THINK it's some sort of condition and perhaps it's not... Either way it's a way to discuss that possibility here as a starting point.

Thank you guys for this though heart.gif it might just be a case of closing my mind a bit after all these sudden changes or whatever and getting back to a standard loop of things/routine etc. happy.gif

I've also turned on pms again... I turned them off because I thought that whatever people would have to say would be better off in the thread to keep everything in the open, sorry if that decision made it seem like I wasn't wanting to discuss it, that was the total opposite of what I intended heehee.gif maybe it wasn't the right thing to do, it was past 4am too etc. but I've opened them now for whatever tongue.gif


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Yeah I think it might be best to speak to your gp first before you label it as schizophrenia, as it could also sound to be anxiety. Its tricky as it could easily be something else for all you know. You always have said you over think or over worry so maybe its just that. All I do think is to echo everyone else and see a doctor but just know were are here for emotional support whatever the outcome is.
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post Jul 24 2016, 12:43 PM
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Very common misconception that Schizophrenia has anything to do with having a split personality.
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post Jul 24 2016, 01:03 PM
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I have studied Schizophernia at uni, but in all honesty you would need to go see your GP. The internet is never a good place to make a self-diagnosis. I am here if you ever want to talk heart.gif

QUOTE(Joe. @ Jul 24 2016, 01:43 PM) *
Very common misconception that Schizophrenia has anything to do with having a split personality.


Very encouraging, Joe laugh.gif
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QUOTE(Cameron @ Jul 24 2016, 02:03 PM) *
I have studied Schizophernia at uni, but in all honesty you would need to go see your GP. The internet is never a good place to make a self-diagnosis. I am here if you ever want to talk heart.gif
Very encouraging, Joe laugh.gif



Sorry! Was just picking up on something that had been mentioned above!
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QUOTE(HarryEzra @ Jul 24 2016, 01:39 PM) *
Yeah I think it might be best to speak to your gp first before you label it as schizophrenia, as it could also sound to be anxiety. Its tricky as it could easily be something else for all you know. You always have said you over think or over worry so maybe its just that. All I do think is to echo everyone else and see a doctor but just know were are here for emotional support whatever the outcome is.

That's the trouble there's just so many labels for things like this, it's difficult to know which one you fit in, I'm not in a position to label myself anything. I think I just get too sensitive over everything, maybe there's some kind of label that makes me borderline everything, or something. I get the feeling over people have these kinds of thoughts too but they don't go so deep into it and keep those thoughts at the back of their mind, I'm just not as good as doing the same :') I just need to not think about the fact that I have these thoughts, that might help I think.
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I have studied Schizophernia at uni, but in all honesty you would need to go see your GP. The internet is never a good place to make a self-diagnosis. I am here if you ever want to talk heart.gif

Very true, I won't be taking anything further as yet while it's all relatively minor and it's not a cause for concern. Thanks again everyone biggrin.gif wub.gif I think the length and detail into the OP made it sound more serious than it probably is laugh.gif
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No I completely get that the split personality thing is a misconception but like i was using it to refer to invasive thoughts that arent your own/general psychosis of it all but yea hands up I'm not the most knowledgeable person when it comes to schizophrenia.

Tbh the overthinking thing is extremely relatable, like you don't think people think about the same things over and over again but I do, I run scenarios that happened years ago through my mind and still feel embarrassed or whatever about it. I don't want to go into too much detail here but I'm hoping maybe you'll get where I'm coming from but there's been elements of myself that I've been doubting for about three years now and i really kind of had a panic about who i am and I was really trying to adjust to being totally independent, actually figuring out myself as a person, and i was struggling to deal with all of that in my own mind and make sense of a lot of stuff, it's horrible feeling like your mind is trapped in an endless cycle around the same few thoughts etc but if that's something you can relate to at all then I promise it doesn't last and you will get through it, you'll find your own way to manage. For me, I'm sure you know this already but I keep a private online journal where if I'm feeling overwhelmed etc I just type it all out and it really helped me sort through some stuff, put it into perspective and move forward with it. The next thing I did was talk to Lotti, it was a messy convo, I don't think I made much sense (as most of my thoughts don't laugh.gif) but she was exactly what I needed, she didn't jump to conclusions or judge me or shut me down at all, and since I've shared some of the big things that were on my mind, it's been so much easier to deal with and accept certain things. It could be a similar thing to you, you've maybe just been bottling up some really big things and it's too much for you now and you need to share your worries etc with someone. Fair enough if you want to see a professional but definitely confide in s close friend or family member

You've acknowledged that you're not happy mentally which is a big step in itself, whether it's schizophrenia, anxiety, something else or nothing at all, you still need to look into getting the help you need happy.gif
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post Jul 24 2016, 04:08 PM
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Oh wow, Lindsey, I didn't realise how much you would be able to understand what I've been trying to say laugh.gif Yeah that's pretty much me also, I'm quite confident I don't have a split personality though, like I don't feel I have thoughts that aren't mine, well, I could I guess say on a very minor point of view I think of stuff that I would never actually do, like I dunno, something extreme but all it is is a thought, it's not what I would do, it's weird and random... again I am struggling to word this but as it doesn't affect anything and all they will ever be are thoughts, that's no big deal :')

I often find myself rereading things over and over, this isn't necessarily a bad thing because 99% of the time I will pick something different out I didn't see before, or I find I misunderstood something the first time. I may also read one thing under one mood and then read it as something else in another so I need to make sure I get the right conclusion out of it or at least be open to the possibility that I'm wrong with what I conclude. The feeling about having your mind trapped is how I feel like too sometimes, I'm glad it didn't last long for you and that's pretty promising for my situation also, like I said earlier it's likely to be temporary given I've had no major effect before and because the forum is a place where you can open up more than you can in real life and how involved I have got into it this kind of thing was going to come out of me eventually, now I've posted all this there's not much left in my mind that I haven't brought out into the open lmao :')

Oh yes it's great to talk to someone who doesn't conclusion jump or judge you, not everyone will be able to fully understand but those two qualities are valuable when talking to someone else about things like this. That journal idea does seem like a good one and I might consider it down the line. In general though I've been fairly content with my life and stuff, much more than I was before this year and I've just been able to accept that this is me and it might be harder to progress through life than most other people but it's still something I can do. There's things about my personality I'm able to alter to some degree to make things easier but I can't make everything perfect. Like what I said about overthinking and worrying about small problems, I'm already getting better at that biggrin.gif
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post Jul 24 2016, 04:19 PM
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That's the trouble there's just so many labels for things like this, it's difficult to know which one you fit in, I'm not in a position to label myself anything. I think I just get too sensitive over everything, maybe there's some kind of label that makes me borderline everything, or something. I get the feeling over people have these kinds of thoughts too but they don't go so deep into it and keep those thoughts at the back of their mind, I'm just not as good as doing the same :') I just need to not think about the fact that I have these thoughts, that might help I think.

Yeah thinking and worrying about these kinds of thoughts will only make you worse, especially when it comes to a potential mental illness. Have you tried talking to a family member or close friend about it btw?
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post Jul 24 2016, 04:29 PM
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QUOTE(HarryEzra @ Jul 24 2016, 05:19 PM) *
Yeah thinking and worrying about these kinds of thoughts will only make you worse, especially when it comes to a potential mental illness. Have you tried talking to a family member or close friend about it btw?

No, I'm undecided if it's a "necessary" thing to do, yet. It also comes under the "I don't want to worry anyone" umbrella again, obviously if it gets too much it would be silly to not say anything, but I don't want people to think that I'm more affected than I probably am, I mentioned before that I haven't really shown any signs of anything outside my head which is why I haven't done anything about it and it hasn't affected me enough for me to feel the need to do something. I mean I could keep on reassuring whoever I would talk about it to that it's minor but not everyone will """""""believe""""""" you, if you know what I mean (?) I wish it was easier to talk to my mum about stuff but she conclusion jumps all the time and assumes things and she doesn't understand how I process thinking or has any kind of social anxiety which is a shame really, I mean, discussing topics like this won't be easy, and obviously I'm not fully responsible for the way I approach situations and decisions and in the same way I'm sure people like my mum have their way of thinking and approaching things and wouldn't want to change that to suit other people. I don't know lol laugh.gif
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No, I'm undecided if it's a "necessary" thing to do, yet. It also comes under the "I don't want to worry anyone" umbrella again, obviously if it gets too much it would be silly to not say anything, but I don't want people to think that I'm more affected than I probably am, I mentioned before that I haven't really shown any signs of anything outside my head which is why I haven't done anything about it and it hasn't affected me enough for me to feel the need to do something. I mean I could keep on reassuring whoever I would talk about it to that it's minor but not everyone will """""""believe""""""" you, if you know what I mean (?) I wish it was easier to talk to my mum about stuff but she conclusion jumps all the time and assumes things and she doesn't understand how I process thinking or has any kind of social anxiety which is a shame really, I mean, discussing topics like this won't be easy, and obviously I'm not fully responsible for the way I approach situations and decisions and in the same way I'm sure people like my mum have their way of thinking and approaching things and wouldn't want to change that to suit other people. I don't know lol laugh.gif

Yeah I can see what you mean esp with this sort of thing, just try writing things down or speaking to someone on here who you trust if you do need some form of emotional support. I only asked as you might need it in real life even more as we could only do so much on the internet if that makes sense laugh.gif
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Yeah I can see what you mean esp with this sort of thing, just try writing things down or speaking to someone on here who you trust if you do need some form of emotional support. I only asked as you might need it in real life even more as we could only do so much on the internet if that makes sense laugh.gif

yess it does make sense biggrin.gif I share a lot of stuff on here that I don't irl but I would discuss it irl if it gets to a certain point happy.gif
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I'm just gonna draw on my own experience, because I have had depression as a teenager and it got the point like you where I couldn't hold it in anymore. At the time I think I was only speaking to Grant about it but while that helps, even just having one person, but they can only help to a degree. I got to the point where I felt I had to go to a doctor because it was only getting worse and talking to people can relieve a burden but they can't help you in the way that professionals can. If you don't feel like it's bad enough yet then obviously nobody can force you or make you go to a doctor, really only you can make that call of whether it's bad enough to seek help or if for now just venting on here etc is enough! But even just going to your GP might shed some light and eliminate some worries of which problems may or may not be present. I mean if it ends up being nothing then one simple trip to the doctors may actually be very very beneficial, as hard as it may feel to take that step.
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QUOTE(Liаm @ Jul 24 2016, 05:43 PM) *
I'm just gonna draw on my own experience, because I have had depression as a teenager and it got the point like you where I couldn't hold it in anymore. At the time I think I was only speaking to Grant about it but while that helps, even just having one person, but they can only help to a degree. I got to the point where I felt I had to go to a doctor because it was only getting worse and talking to people can relieve a burden but they can't help you in the way that professionals can. If you don't feel like it's bad enough yet then obviously nobody can force you or make you go to a doctor, really only you can make that call of whether it's bad enough to seek help or if for now just venting on here etc is enough! But even just going to your GP might shed some light and eliminate some worries of which problems may or may not be present. I mean if it ends up being nothing then one simple trip to the doctors may actually be very very beneficial, as hard as it may feel to take that step.

This thread has basically just been a way for me to decide and get advice on what I should do or not, I think getting it out there and having advice and support from you guys has already helped my current situation, perhaps all this has also maybe prevented, to some extent, it happening again, or at least for a while cheer.gif I think I've said before but Buzzjack has also steered me away from a fairly constant depression I had which I was on and off about and I used the forum as a place to try and distract me from it all up until this year, and ever since, that hasn't come back in the way that it was.
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