BJSC 178

POiSON GiRL FRiEND - The End of History

I can't bear to sleep

Restlessness and nervousness

Are my constant friends

Deandria is back after a long break, which was unexpected for probably everyone including me.

I described this as 'a cute bop from 1993 I'm loving right now' and I guess I'll leave it at that for now. ☺️

I sadly didn't get to experience Deandria as a BJSC latecomer, so looking through this thread and seeing the taste

41 minutes ago, blacksquare said:

I sadly didn't get to experience Deandria as a BJSC latecomer, so looking through this thread and seeing the taste

Wow thank you Mr. Host! I actually wasn't sure if we'd competed together before (I remember you as a member but wasn't sure if you were in BJSC back then).

Edited October 3, 2025Oct 3 by matto

56 minutes ago, matto said:

Wow thank you Mr. Host! I actually wasn't sure if we'd competed together before (I remember you as a member but wasn't sure if you were in BJSC back then).

I joined in 2023 after being too daunted and perplexed by the entire thing. Glad I did though!

You're coming back just as alt bloc is on a bit of a takeover 🌚

The thing where you're like deciding between trying to do well vs just sending something you find interesting. 🤭

I guess you can try to do both ofc lmao

'The End of History' qualified to the final and came 32nd. I was just happy to get to the final so all good.

Let's try the next one now 😊

BJSC 179

Linda Perhacs - Parallelograms

Quadrahedral

Tetrahedral

An artist I discovered quite recently and fell in love with the album this is from in particular. This is the title track from it. I believe this is most likely my oldest ever entry as it's from 1970. Perhacs enough of you will enjoy it for it to qualify 🤭

This is an extraordinary piece from Deandria! The drums at around 1:51 had me sitting up to hear what was about to happen and then I was transcended to another place. #blissfulmusic

I will pay someone to help me organize this thread, add all entries, more info, etc. 🤭

I'm being serious btw. Or how about this, I can send someone a Christmas package? Or even a playlist of songs?

It's not that important I know but I think I would personally enjoy having a better thread. Maybe I'll start a new one but the offer is still there. My vision is to have a proper write-up about every single entry, maybe even lyrics... My reflections about various older entries, all my points given and received possibly, etc.

Some of it I'd obviously just have to do myself anyway like my thoughts on entries so I'm not sure how much help I'd need realistically but still, haha

Let me know what stats you want and I should be able to provide them x

My previous entry 'Parallelograms' came 22nd. Does that mean my current entry will come 12th? 🤔 (since 'The End of History' came 32nd, haha)

I was quite surprised it did as well as that tbh. At first I wasn't really sure what to expect though.

Next one now!

BJSC 180

Blacky - Ööö

maaslamajat sa tead ma ei löö

(you know I won't hit someone who's on the ground)

So, I've been wanting to send an Estonian-language song for a long time, but never found the one. Around the time of the 178th contest (my return contest), I already decided what my next two entries would be. So this was the second one in that plan. Funnily enough, we had an Estonian-language song in the last contest in the form of 'Luukered' by SADU, which won for FSR Rontvia, and I was so happy about that! So now, coincidentally, we're getting an Estonian-language song in two contests in a row.

I've known this band since I was a kid. They were a five-piece all-female Estonian rock band. The lead singer sadly passed away a few years ago, she had both Covid and cancer. I've watched a few of her interviews and she was a really interesting person.

I wanted to share this other song by Blacky. So, I love that whole album, and was trying to choose which song off it to enter. 'Ööö' stood out to me the most as an entry, but I also think '...Ja Põleb Maa' could've made for a strong entry. Perhaps stronger than 'Ööö' in some ways as it's a very epic song. But I had to make a decision. Please do take a listen if you're curious!

Yeah, I kinda wish I would've sent '...Ja Põleb Maa' instead now 😆 It's such a beautiful song, I think it could've qualified. Speaking of qualifying, we didn't with 'Ööö'. But I have faith that I can get my ever elusive three consecutive qualifiers for the first time ever next year as I have some great potentials (in my opinion). From my end it's mostly about sending them in the 'right' order, to potentially maximize my chances of that happening, as I also do have some potentials that I wouldn't be as confident about. So I will attempt to send three songs in a row that I love but also am more confident about them qualifying. You never know though!

Edited December 8, 2025Dec 8 by matto

BJSC 181

Merina Gris - Mejor*

it was only a kiss

One of my favourite discoveries of last year, this is, for me, a very powerful and striking song that I'm almost a little addicted to right now. It helps that it has a nice aesthetically pleasing video (just a little note: The video version has a little bit in the beginning that doesn't appear on Spotify or Apple Music). I love the whole song - the strings are beautiful! - but what tops it off really is the second half when the music escalates and the heart-wrenching performance that leads the song to a close. From the first listen, I've been truly impressed.

"I'm not cool enough for this", he says, and then sends this

Truly obsessed and a reminder that BJSC can still serve genuine discoveries. I hope you're prepared for me to go on about this all week x

I eventually looked up the lyrics (translated) and they are also quite heart-wrenching 😢

I'm going to write something that hurts
Voy a escribir algo que duela

Because it bothers me that everything dies
Porque me jode que todo se muera

I can sleep with this pain
Puedo dormir con esta pena

But guilt is a chain
Pero la culpa es una cadena

While I, I writhe
Mientras yo, yo me retuerzo

In the pain of the blind spot
En el dolor del ángulo muerto

There is no shortcut to cure
Para curarse no hay atajo

On my WhatsApp you are very low
En mi Whatsapp estás muy abajo

It's cold in Donosti and it's f***ing summer
Hace frío en Donosti y es puto verano

Like Olivia, I see your face in every white car
Como Olivia, veo tu cara en cada coche blanco

I'm still in this room but now I sleep alone
Sigo en esta habitación pero ahora duermo solo

You didn't take anything but you took everything
No cogiste nada pero te llevaste todo

I don't use the blue heart, I hardly go near the sea
No uso el corazón azul, casi no me acerco al mar

I don't know if I said goodbye, or if this door is going to close
No sé si me despedí, ni si esta puerta va a cerrar

As that song says: "this wasn't for you"
Como dice esa canción: "esto no era para ti"

I'm afraid of feeling so much, but more of not feeling
Tengo miedo a sentir tanto, pero más a no sentir

I don't really know what I'm doing here
No sé muy bien qué hago aquí

Looking back I'm not happy
Mirando atrás no soy feliz

Singing to you like this is not going to help
Cantarte así no va a servir

You no longer listen to Merina Gris
Ya no escuchas Merina Gris

I already know that you are like that
Ya sé que tú eres así

You don't think so much, you're happy
No piensas tanto, eres feliz

How long did it take you to forget how I made you feel?
¿Cuánto tardaste en olvidar cómo te hacía yo sentir?

Why am I going to lie to you?
¿Para qué te voy a mentir?

I'm better, much better
Estoy mejor, mucho mejor

I've gotten out of the hole but it bothers me that it's without you
He salido del agujero pero me jode que sea sin ti

You who have seen me suffer
Tú que me has visto sufrir

you have put up with me
Me has aguantado

you have held me
Me has sujetado

I dragged you to my f***ing hell and you had to go
Te arrastré a mi puto infierno y tú te tuviste que ir

And we will continue like this
Y seguiremos así

Until now, we give each other the same
Hasta que ya, nos demos igual

until you forget about me
Hasta que tú te olvides de mí

Until there's nothing to feel
Hasta que no haya nada que sentir

I can ask little of you
Poco te puedo pedir

You just keep me in a little box
Tú solo guárdame en una cajita

Because I want you to be happy
Porque quiero que seas feliz

But don't let anything know about me
Pero que nada te sepa a mí

I want you to be happy
Quiero que seas feliz

But don't let anything know about me
Pero que nada te sepa a mí

I want you to be happy
Quiero que seas feliz

But don't let anything know about me
Pero que nada te sepa a mí

I want you to be happy
Quiero que seas feliz

But don't let anything know about me
Pero que nada te sepa a mí

I want you to be happy
Quiero que seas feliz

But don't let anything know about me
Pero que nada te sepa a mí

And now you're gone
Y ahora ya no estás

We are nothing anymore
Ya no somos nada

(It was only a kiss)

21 minutes ago, blacksquare said:

"I'm not cool enough for this", he says, and then sends this

Truly obsessed and a reminder that BJSC can still serve genuine discoveries. I hope you're prepared for me to go on about this all week x

Hm yeah I know I've said that a few times now about several things 😆 I have debilitating Impostor Syndrome xo

That's beautiful though - I'm so glad that someone got a genuinely great discovery out of me sending a rather random discovery that I love. ❤️

Edited January 19Jan 19 by matto

3 hours ago, matto said:

You no longer listen to Merina Gris
Ya no escuchas Merina Gris

This line in the lyrics is especially heart-wrenching 😭

Completely unrelated but I recently revisited an old entry of yours (Tikkle Me - Genius) and just wanted to give it some more belated love. I know I hyped it up some at the time in this thread but it really stands as such a unique entry all these years later. What a GEM ❤️

(Also I gave semi 1 of the current contest a blind listen yesterday and your entry survived the first big cull )